Saturday, November 5, 2011

i'll make it up to u

'u lied to me for years?'
'i had to.i was too afraid to lose u.'

lately ive been too sensitive dgn d because i was too afraid utk hilang dia.he almost walk away.
so selalu pk bukan2,slack sikit touching,sedeh.
but td time tgk house,kisah kali ni the ending husband dia found out his wife ad hide bnda besar dialog dorang mcm ats tu.

sentap aku bila laki tu ckp gitu.dlm kepala mmg trbayang d yg ckp gitu la.
sape suke klau asyik sensitive je kan?d pn ckp jgn la snsitive sgt..and i realized mmg xpyh pn touching kuat sgt.
cos he's been great to me.i know he loves me.
there's nothing he has done that could make me think i will lose him.

i love u d!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

fears and frustration :confession

hritu,english class.lecturer asked us to sit dlm bulatan and he gave us this smua org kena confess pasal benda ni.interesting kan.
ada yg confess smpai trsentuh hti,ad yg ntah pape ad yg lawak.

by the time its my turn,aku ckp ni,
'i fear i wont be able to make my dad proud.coz im the oldest of the six girls so i have to be the son that supposed to make daddy proud.i have my dreams and ambition but i had to put that aside just to follow his plans for me.
and my biggest frustration is when the spm result came up.i got straight a's for upsr and pmr so i know dad expected the same thing.but i failed him.i got carried away by music and football at that time.
"wani,im disappointed in u"he shoot me in the heart with that words.
so thats it.'

lps confess tu rse cam terkilan gila.klau x sbb tggungjwb,aku dh ambik live sound engineering.mesti best.blaja apa yg aku minat!but now stuck kt ranaco!

lps tu lps tu (haa ni jiwang skit) my d lalu dpn class!haha terus trsenyum and say dlm hti'no im not regretting this.i came here and met him'.

ps:thats when i realised i too fear if i will lose him.i love him too much now.we have moments that i realized how much i love him,but only once when i thought he's gonna leave.that was pure pain.i cant feel that was too painful.

Thursday, July 28, 2011


mum penah asked 'hang penah rindu sape2 smpai nngis x?'
i answered 'no'
she smiled 'maknany hang xlove sape2 lagi.bila pmpuan nngis sbb rindu laki tu,bru la dia da btl2 love laki'.
well if mak ask me again,this time my answer is yes.

bru td,i just finished solat,tibe2 ad mcm punch to my heart yg buat i miss him sangattt2 smpai i have tears :').so i cried tp rse tenang gila!rindu yg sgt but xseksa.tenang je.

Dannis Sike. lelaki yg holds my heart now. i cant remember when i fall for him.tbe2 je rse dh love dia.its like mmg dh meant to be me and him :)

my fav pic of him!maybe sbb the smile kot :)

u are the one for me d.i love u.i am lucky u love me back.know that i pray u will always be with me.

keh xnak jiwang pnjang2 kt sini.kang ada yg geli lak baca.
i just want everyone to know yg i am completely in love with dannis!

my whole his :)

Saturday, May 7, 2011


i used to hate the colour.
maybe xla sebyk xsuka pink or oren ke but still xsuka la.
lgsung xde brg yellow,
tgk org pkai yellow pn mcm ee burukny.

until coldplay changed it into something beautiful.

dgr byk2 kali lagu ni trus minat yellow!
sapa2 pkai yellow nmpak shining je dia.
everything ada yellow is beautiful now :)

Friday, April 29, 2011


finally i have the mood to finish this post.dh brapa lama da tangguh.i had to do this sbb its about one of the best times in my life,pasal world cup 2010.hehe
act da ad dlm draft 2 tajuk,spain wins ngn colours of world cup.since bnda ni da lama aku gabung jerla.

sooo mcm ni cita dia,
a month before wc aku da exited gila nk tgk.tiap hari countdown.da sebuk gado2 ngn org pasal fav team.i was the only one yg sokong spain dlm famly.
world cup started,spain kalah first match lwn switz.boy i wasss down gila!pastu kena kutuk kaw la.
tp hero kalah dulu kan (ayt member) so cam lek kan bru first match spain.lps ni mng smua ah.sbb trlampau down,i promised myself not to jerit goal to every match smpai la spain score the next match.
then second match spain lwn honduras,villa scored.peh time jerit mmg xigt ap dah.tu jerit goal plg kuat yg penah aku lontarkan.

so makan tido mandi smua pasal wc.i watched every match yg ad and then on9 pn cri psal wc.smpai laa brita plg xbest.aku kena daftar msuk ranaco 1hb 7.what the fish?(ayt amer) gila rse tensyen.mcm mna nk tgk xknl sape2 lgi kt sana.but i did what i had to do.pegi jugak la kemaman tu.pastu cuti jap 2 hri so abah bwk gi tido chalet jap tepi pntai.mcm mne tensyen time tu xyah ckp la.da xpeduli pasal ranaco buruk ke mcm mne nk tgk wc je.

the last night kt chalet, ad match holland lwn brazil.aku sokong holland sbb nk brazil kuar awl2.dorg cam bole menang wc.aku nk spain mng.get it?
otw nk gi tgk,aku lompat2 cheering 'holland holland' pastuhhhhhh aku jatuh tangga.tinggi wooo.nngis kot sakit gila.nsb baik holland mng jugak.

esokny tgk kaki bengkak.time tu 'yes yes kaki da bengkak bole blk'.
pegi check doc bg mc 3 hri.aku ap lgi blk rwg ah tgk wc.tq Allah sbb jdkan accident tu :).
even da lps 3hri aku bantai cuti seminggu tnggu final wc.theres no way aku nk blk kemaman knowing the risk i might not dpt tgk the finals.dh last2 match mkin intense so mkin brdebar la spain bole mng ke x.

finally,spain won.that night,aku org spain.

byk bnda time wc yg aku xbole lpa smpai skarng.the important goals,the intense match,the crowd.mlm2 jerit goal smpai jiran pn dgr.i remember abah saying this 'abah xyah bgn tgh2 pagi tgk wc.trbgn dgr hang jerit goal je abah da tau brapa score'.

that one month really made my best moments.

here's some my fav vids.bring back the memory.

noticed how handsome navas is.player plg hensem.hehe

what a world cup :')

perfect song for them rite

that look on cristiano ronaldo is priceless :)

hope u enjoy as much as i did.

Friday, April 22, 2011

it stunned me

kemaman.its nearly one year i have been staying here.many unexpected things happened.
but i survived even i dont have many friends especially girl friends.because i just cant get along with girl2 kt sini.its okay i'm fine.

so today,a girl friend came to me.she told me about her problems.from a to z.gila complicated masalah dia.anddd she cried dpn aku.sooo i kinda feel kesian kt dia.her story was sad really.
lps hbs crita dia tny 'so mal ap pendapat kau?'
'klau kau ap kau nk buat'
'mcm mne ni mal?'
so aku relax jerla.calm kan dia.ckp ap yg ptt.biasa la bnda2 yg positive.
i thought it just gonna end there.

thenn she asked 'how bout u?tell me bout your problem'
dgn rse pelik aku jwb 'hmm i dont have any problems.i'm fine'
'i know u have shows'
'it shows?' memandaiii je minah ni.
'yeah..obviously..with ur attitude smua'

'hahaha no honey i dont have any problem,im fine.i mean this is just me.maybe most ppl wont understand.but yeah im fine'

it just stunned me that u can see the happiest girl but no one knows that she's facing a serious problem.while the other girl,yg more keep it to herself,yg xnmpak happy sgt,tu yg xde masalah.

maybe thats the problem,when there is no problem.u dont function as normal being.

Monday, April 11, 2011

runnin round leaving scars

i have done many things but yet accomplished nothing.

done wrongs but still keep doing it,then
made the right choice,
made the right decision,
pointer mkin ok,
have great friends around,
have great man beside me,
still i feel unhappy.
the worst part,they who cares that pay,
for trying to make this complicated heart happy.

does selfish make u a bad person?